Journaling has never been something that I am comfortable with, but I would like to start, I am going to start at least a sentence here and a sentence there.  Instead of always being afraid that I won't make sense, or flow right. So here I go...

Today is Memorial Day and I didn't go visit Bralyn, it was too painful. So I shoved my pain deep down so that I could be at least somewhat productive for my husband and my other kiddos. But I would like my boy to know that I miss him every second of every day and that I am thankful for him serving our family from heaven. I know that you didn't serve in an armed service on earth, but I know that you are in God's Army, and I am so very proud of you!!!

A little about today...
Cliff and Tynon mowed the lawn and cleaned the garage.  Mady joined them and they cleaned off and power washed the back patio.  Then Cliff took Tynon dirt bike riding down to the spill way, while Mady showered and put some clothes away.  I cleaned the dishes and family room and sweeped all the main areas. Then Cliff took Tynon swimming in out lake while I took Mady to get two of her friends.  Grace and Kaycee.  Cliff made dinner and then took Mady and her friends out to ride the dirt bikes.  Kaycee wrecked but she was fine, just a good scratch on her tri. She was so brave.  Cliff and I hung some pictures.

Yesterday, we finished up Mady's room, here is a couple of pics

She is loving it!!!!

Time moves on...

It's seem so cruel, to me, that time continues to keep moving on. It's been 6 months already without my Bralyn my baby, one of my reasons for living, and yet I have to keep going for my other kids. But every birthday, graduation, anniversary, and holidays that comes is so very bitter sweet.  Bralyn's birthday posters still decorate my walls, his toys are still in my purse, his car seat, now being used by his baby brother, is still in the same place in my van, his pictures are all over, but he's not visible.  His laugh, him zooming through the rooms, his hugs and kisses. There's an emptiness that can't be filled.  He was so full of life that he lifted everyone's spirits! But through all the pain and heartbreak I find myself so very grateful for the knowledge that families can be together for all eternity, and the promise that we will see him again.  Without it I wouldn't be able to find peace at all.  I love you Bralyn, I miss you  ever minute of everyday.  Your  brothers and sisters miss you terribly, your in our thoughts and in ours hearts. Love you Bro Bro!!!!

I'm starting a new blog, I've never been the best at blogging, but I would like to start it's name is bralynliveson@blogspot.com